I wanna apologize to anyone I kept waiting and anyone who I might’ve hurt by not coming back like I said I would, but I really can't be here anymore. I want to stay in contact with everyone though, so I'll be dropping by now and then, and hopefully one day I’ll actually be able to come back as Lizzy.
So, I really haven’t been here for months now. I’m not gonna say why (it doesn’t really matter anyway) but just know that despite it being a valid reason, I feel really bad about it.
And I know I’ve said I would come back several times, to many people, and never came through with that promise and I really apologize for that. I’ve had this account for over two years now, and I guess a lot just happened to the point where now as much as there are happy memories and moments, there’s just too much baggage to deal with.
Originally, I thought I would create another account to distract myself and counteract the heavy feelings from here. I had planned to keep both accounts, but I found that the more time I spent there, the less I wanted to be here. I did try to come back and tell those of you here who matter to me like my own family about that account, but I had trouble putting it into words. The last thing I want any of you to think is that I don’t care, but I thought if I had people from this account interacting with me on that account, I would be reminded of this account over and over again. I’m sorry for that, and I wish I had told you all earlier.
I also had thought in the beginning that maybe a week away would be enough to deal with the feelings, and then that ‘week’ turned into a month, which turned into three, and so on. I had no idea it would take so long to come to terms with whatever I’m feeling right now, and I’m still not over it.
It took a long time to come to this decision, to leave. Once, I had wondered “how can people just leave an account?” I’m one of those people now, and it really does seem like the best thing to do.
I’m still gonna keep the blog for the purpose of preserving memories and such, but I won’t be active at all for a while, if ever again. I can’t be here without having the thoughts I wanted to run from all come rushing back, so I’m afraid it’s a lost cause.
All in all, I wanna apologize to anyone I kept waiting and anyone who I might’ve hurt by not being here like I said I would.
In the mean time, just message me if you want to know my other account.